I am undecided, unsure, and so very confused..
It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve updated. So for a quick recap, I was accepted to go with GMI to Bolivia despite the confusion, but after some research and prayer, I decided not to go. Since then, I’ve had NO idea where I should go. Maybe Cambodia? Maybe Thailand? But I’ve found nothing that fits the dates I would like to go.
Then there is the feel of self-doubt. Questions like “Should I even go this year?” and “I don’t feel worthy of even going..” along with my parents hinting that God’s will involves me not going or waiting until I graduate to go, really are not helping the situation at all.
I need a plan. I need to know where I’m going, what I’m doing, how I’m getting there. Not having that is extremely unsettling. I don’t know where to go from here.
But until I do, I’ll just focus on these lyrics from our theme song,
“Give me faith to trust what you say
That You’re good, and Your love is great.
I’m broken inside, I give You my life.”